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2. I think the first blog I ever had was on blogspot, and after that I had a "blurty" which was one of those livejournal clones. How random is that? I used to write like every detail of my boring life when I was a high school freshman. They deleted that site or I'd go back and read it! I've written in my current LJ once in the past two years.
3. I've been to church (as in gone to a service, not just been *in* a church) exactly four times in my life. That was four too many! I went through a phase where I thought religions that didn't involve Jesus Christ would work better for me but then I realized they were full of just as much shit. Ok yeah people are going to get mad at me for that one, so I'll just say that I don't literally think they're all bullshit, they just...didn't do anything for me. Which makes me feel like there's something wrong with me sometimes.
4. I was born with my umbilical cord wrapped around my neck and I had to be delivered with a big pair of baby head tongs (ok so yeah I know they're not called that). I used to claim that was the most exciting thing that ever happened to me and be proud that I have a sort of interesting medical story to tell, but now I'm glad that I don't really.
5. I used to hate my name because nobody can pronounce or spell either my first or my last name right. Now I think it's cool, especially with my first name and middle name (Mariah...haha firefox thinks that's spelled wrong) put together. It's like a form of Anna Maria or Ann Marie or like a million other names, but it's also unique. I also love that I have a Saint's day even though my name is only a form of the name Anne. My French host mother told me that (her name is also a form of Anne so we had the same day) and I thought it was really cool even though I'm not even remotely Catholic.
6. I have an unhealthy obsession with how I could have done things differently in high school...like I'm finally emotionally mature enough and I wish I could go back and do things over again. I had this dream a few weeks ago where I applied to do another year at SYA and I was making a bunch of friends at my school and getting along really well with my host family but then the night before classes started I realized the teachers would recognize me and I couldn't hide all year, so I'd have to run away. And then I scared myself so much that I woke up.
7. I can't watch TV on TV. My family didn't have a TV the whole time I was growing up (no I don't think this makes me better than you) and I guess I'm just more used to books and movies that you can read/watch from beginning to end without interruption or skipping around. I get really into a TV show and watch the whole thing on DVD or download them, but the concept of watching an episode here and there is foreign to me...it would be like reading random chapters out of a novel!
8. I have this weird thing where I get really sad about inanimate objects. Like I seriously cried one time when I bought a shitty cell phone and I had to return it because I hated it so much. I felt so bad that no one would ever want it because it couldn't take pictures or play real ringtones. But I told myself that some old lady bought it and used it to call 911 when she fell down and broke her hip and it actually ended up saving someones life! Yes I'm aware this makes me sound seriously pathetic.
9. One of my biggest "pet peeves" is the whole" girls who like sports are lesbians" stereotype. It probably bothers me way more than it should. When I was in grade school I was the only person (male or female) I knew who didn't play a sport, and I wasn't exactly made fun of, just...people gave me baffled looks and asked things like "so what do you do for exercise?" (Ok so that's actually a reasonable question....) So I associate sports with happy well adjusted all-American kids and me being a weird clumsy outcast.
10. This quiz is sooooo self-indulgent. I can't imagine anyone would want to read any of these facts about me. And I keep coming up with "facts" that are just things that I hate about myself. I'll just get it out of the way all at once by saying that I have a horribly low self-esteem. I always have, well at least since I started going to grade school. Ok here's a real fact: I have a really hard time forgiving my parents for homeschooling and sheltering me when I was little. It's really fucked me up in a lot of ways.
11. I call my car Gwennie but her full name is Gwennaig (gwen-ah-eeg). That's the name of a girl who was in my drawing class in France. It was the coolest name I could think of that I wouldn't want to saddle an actual kid with.
12. Speaking of kids, I really want some! My stupid hormones keep reminding me that I'm getting old and in my natural state I would have already had like at least six (and probably died in childbirth). I hate that me and Cara have to be like ten times more financially ready that anyone else before we have kids. Also I used to say I was going to adopt a kid but now I really want to carry some of my own for whatever reason, and I hate that I have to feel bad and conflicted about that when perfectly wonderful straight couples conceive their own children every day without a second though.
13. I bought a lottery ticket on the last Friday the 13th but I didn't win...I guess that proves I'm not evil, which was disappointing. :(
14. At the end of this month I'm going to Cincinnati to take a three day class and get my certification as a TESOL (teaching English to speakers of other languages) teacher. I really hope this works out so I can leave my crappy job and get a job in another country or at least get a meaningful job in the US. I know not having a college degree makes it harder, but I'd love to work wherever I'm needed the most, not just in like Paris or wherever the party's at. Even though I love to party in Europe. I'm going to Amsterdam over spring break after all.
15. Speaking of spring break, I absolutely can't wait to show Cara France. It's going to be so amazing to see the places I love with the girl I'm in love with and yes that's extremely cheesy but whatever. It's so much fun planning a trip together and I've never been happier with anything I've purchased (except maybe my car because it's so damn nice not taking the RTA ever again). (Oh and I've never gotten to join the mile high club before...just sayin...)
16. I'm jealous of everyone who stuck with college for more than a year...it's so weird that I should be a junior now and a lot of people in my class are already graduating. I feel so pathetic and I don't know why I was the one who couldn't make it through.
17. I honestly don't think I'm good at anything, but I could accept my lack of artistic and academic talents if I could just be one of those people who's good at picking up on foreign languages. I've worked with Spanish speakers for the last two years and I still only know a few random words for different food products.
18. My boss Martin is seriously like one of my heroes for learning English "on the streets." He has the funniest stories about when he first moved to East Cleveland from El Salvador not speaking a word of English. Now his English isn't perfect but he's really funny and sarcastic in a way that you have to understand the nuances of the language to really get to. I'm going to miss him a lot when he leaves and I really hope whatever he does next works out for him and his family.
19. I could (and maybe sometime I will) write out a catalog of all the worst customers I get at work every day. The worst of the worst is the annoying middle aged "comedian" who says "can you not give me a receipt so I can get it for free?" (There's a sign on the register that says you get your meal for free if the cashier doesn't give you a receipt.) Followed closely by "working hard or hardly working?" I don't know which comedian said that the appropriate response is to strangle the guy and ask "breathing hard or hardly breathing?"
20. Other places I live on the web:
http://twitter.com/hannnna
http://hannnnaa.tumblr.com
http://the--boxer.livejour
http://www.myspace.com/swe
http://www.last.fm/user/pu
http://www.youtube.com/use
I can't seem to resist signing up for these things. Seriously, what's the point of Twitter?
21. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed by all the things I haven't seen in my own city that I wonder what's the point of traveling.
22. I love reading maps and seeing how different places are connected to each other. I'm always like wow I didn't know that was there before or I didn't know that place was so close to that other place.
23. This list is really hard to do without getting too negative or too personal. I'm so close yet so far away! I remember once in high school I wrote one of these on livejournal but with 100 facts, and most of them were about how much I hated myself. I might still have a giant inferiority complex, but I'm no longer that shamelessly angsty!
24. Haha I just went back and read it and it made me sad. "10. I was bored and nostalgic the other day and I googled a bunch of names of people I was friends with in middle school, and they're all doing stuff like being secretary general of Model UN and writing all the articles in the school newspaper and starting anti-war demonstrations. I felt like a huge loser in comparison." How eerily familiar...except replace google with facebook stalking and replace all that high school stuff with going to Ivy League or good liberal arts schools, spending junior year abroad, and getting real jobs and shit.
25. Ok one more real fact...I wish my maternal grandmother had lived long enough for me to talk to her on an adult level, and one of my biggest motivations for doing things is to no longer be a disappointment to my father. And I'm out.
Great blog Hanna.I had a weird birth also. I nearly died in the womb and had to be delivered by caesarian section. I'm glad you share my infatuation with maps. I love reading them and imagining what it's like to live there.
ReplyDeleteAs the saying goes in my country, people who had a difficult birth are meant for great things ^_^
ReplyDeleteasuka - well speaking of maps, I assume you saw my other entry (at the end if you didn't read all my verbal diarrhea)...haha that might be taking infatuation with maps a little too far, it's kinda creepy!
ReplyDeletelantsei - that's really cool! sometimes I do feel like I'm meant for great things (every once in awhile at least)
... and about the point of twitter: it's a blog for dumb people like me who cannot write more than a sentence to describe their own thoughts.
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